Anxiety and arrogance.
Remember that anxiety is arrogant and unbecoming.
Humility lies in accepting your place in the world along with all uncertainties that exist in your life, for it is all given by Nature, by Shakti herself, and She is never wrong. It is your analysis, measurement, and judgement of Shakti which leads to this state of anxious expectation. Let your mind lift away from your judgement, perceive the puzzle at large and return to the work at hand. Return to the present: the secret, the golden gift of Nature. Embrace the present and let Nature lead you to self-discovery, let Shakti lead you to the Shiva within.
If you cannot do this, divinity will always seem elusive and you will succumb to arrogance and anxiety. But by realising this truth, you will experience your very being become fuller, more blissful, and more free.